I went and sat with myself to see if I could figure out what was really going on…I knew that the emotions that seemed to be overwhelming were only a symptom…and as usual…when I stop…breath…take the time to be quiet, sit and listen…then the truth will show itself…
Why did I feel so unhappy…I have so much to be grateful for…feel at peace and delightful joy…most of the time…but a couple of days ago…the darkness surrounded and suffocated me until I felt I couldn’t breath… drowning in my own sadness…
I can go along for periods of time without experiencing the flooding of emotions…being overwhelmed…and I forget…
Forget that being an HSP…Highly Sensitive Person…that a huge increase in stimuli causes these “overloads”…and last week were 4 days of unusual events…processing new information and deciding what needed to be done…without a break…
Meeting a old friend of Mr. P (the first person since arriving)…his being a guest 4 days…24/7…cooking…which meant several days of excessive preparation and entertaining in a new environment…not being able to adhere to my accustomed way of being…no wonder I was on empty…
I handled the experiences with finesse… I believe…after all…He did tell Mr. P that I was a “honey”… but I was way to far gone before I realized…and wasn’t able to put the brakes on…
My personal recipe for a quicker recovery is just to “check out” altogether for a day or two…which means mentally as well as physically…
…and so I listened and checked out yesterday
…and
…and there were braai’s and the making of the traditional South Africa Milk Tart…mixed with incredibly awe inspiring South African wines…
ahhh…yes
