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Day 235… Should I or Shouldn’t I

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“The best part of the journey is the surprise and wonder along the way.”
― Ken Poirot

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The adventures of our life come because of the unknown…not knowing what the future will be…the key to enjoying those adventures is being open to that misty uncharted land…unleashing the fetters of the routine and the safety net of our habitual lives…

I had a choice…fear the worst and live in regret for not taking a chance or embrace the joy and curiosity of the possible…

What was the basis of my fear?…why do our minds and thoughts always take the dark road…why do we tend to always believe the worst…our decisions should never be made based on fear…

I had thoroughly enjoyed our correspondence…so much so, that we never missed a day of talking to each other in some way, shape or form…he had shown a large percentage of characteristics of a man that I felt was important in a relationship of my choosing…but there were certain flags that I believed had merit…

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But what if…my fears were correct…what if we meet and we weren’t compatible or enjoyed each other’s company…after all…we were from different cultures…grew up in opposing family lifestyles…we were from different social backgrounds…and communicating for 30 minutes in a one-sided conversation is so far from sitting across a table and having a heart-to-heart dialogue…

I do know that I am different from the mainstream woman…I have not lived a conventional life…I do appreciate who I have come to be through the myriad circumstances and environments of my life…and I really do love who I am…but I have never in all of my 60+ years found a man that fit well with this eclectic mixture of womanhood…

Age 30…more or less
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When I am in this type of conundrum…I ask myself “what is the worst case scenario” and “how would I handle it?…

The truth was if I didn’t meet with him…I could potentially lose this relationship anyway…the possibility was intriguing…and worst case scenario we would have an interesting 10 days together…

Mr. P traveled to the US every year for a convention and the time was drawing near…a decision needed to be made…no more waffling…

I did…in hindsight…it was the best decisions in my life and definitely one that I will never regret..no matter what the future may hold…

“So. Tell me. What do you think? Which is better? To take action and perhaps make a fatal mistake – or to take no action and die slowly anyway?”
― Ahdaf Soueif, The Map of Love

It was decided to meet in Atlanta, Georgia…and on February 2, 2019 I left the small city of Scottsburg, Indiana to start the most life changing journey of my life…to find a miracle…find the magic of love

“The friendship I have had in my heart for you has ripened into a deeper feeling, a feeling more beautiful, more pure, more sacred. Dare I name it you? Ah! It is love which makes me so bold!” — Margaret Mitchell, Gone with the Wind

…wishing you magic, laughter and most of all love…

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